Journal

To update from the previous post: the Duoqin has been here for a while now, and... it's wonderful. The more I look at it and use it, the more that hunger for analogue life that has long since exploded in me grows. Using t9 again after so long (I usually use the predictive one, not the normal one, it's easier, haha) is a boundless thrill for me. That beautiful tactile feeling of the physical keys being pressed has nothing to do with the impersonality of touch keyboards. It is like a kind of meditation, a feeling of real contact with the device. And I'm already getting used to typing, because I have the muscle memory of when I was a child, so I'm not even very slow. Of course, the convenience of autocorrect is missing, you have to be more careful not to make mistakes... But that's also part of a slower and more conscious life, isn't it? I chose this phone precisely to tune in even more to the kind of life I want. Slow, sweet and true. It's already become a little gem, I personalised it in total: I put my retro anime wallpaper, created a little pack of vintage icons, stuck the floral sticker on the back... And I installed few apps, just the ones I need. I stopped hoarding apps I don't use. And it's incredibly liberating! My Duoqin is like a discreet and elegant garden that accompanies my days.

Regarding retro technology, yesterday I took another small step back in time. And despite travelling through time, I feel like I'm getting closer and closer to myself. I bought the Duoqin F22 pro, the only truly retro smartphone (in Europe) with a physical T9 keyboard. Simple, light and silent. There is also the virtual keyboard for the need: a gentle combination of present and past. Now I just wait for it to arrive, and I eagerly await it: for me it's special, because it's one more step towards my conception of slow technology. A measured, light and conscious use. Normal smartphones often push us away from reality. We don't need a giant screen or a thousand rushing functions: just a small, essential space where every gesture weighs just the right amount. Even a tablet can be fine, if it brings us back to the intention.
Not everything should go through a smartphone. For most people, the computer often sits in a corner, waiting, while the phone tries to be everything at once... And ends up scattering our attention.
With the Duoqin, I have made another small rebellion against the dominance of modern technology. And for the future, I also plan to buy an mp3 player, to make listening to music more personal. I can't wait to carefully select and download the songs I love, and put them in that little house of mine.
Maybe even a CD player one day!

Another delightful day at the pace of slowness... I spent a good part of the afternoon refining my site. In particular, the herbarium section, as I had dramatically realised that if I viewed it well, on monitors barely larger than mine the page was all misaligned... This is my first time with codes, and I definitely still have to get the hang of it. It is true that as a child (2000s) I was obsessed with computers, but I didn't have my own Geocities site or similar. After all, I was only in primary school.

And here it is: after that, I immersed myself in slowly and carefully visiting old Geocities sites of others. Through an archive. This is one of my favourite activities, the relaxation I get from it is immeasurable... And, as I do so, I often find myself thinking how sad it must have been for these people to lose their precious virtual corner, sewn with such care. I found an email address on a lady's site, tried to send her an email to let her feel that her little corner is still alive... I failed, the address turns out to be non-existent, but I want to try again with other sites. I am convinced that sooner or later I will find an email that is still valid, and I will be able to bring a smile to someone's face by letting them know that their little old corner of the web is still visited. I find that a very sweet thing to do. ❤

Time changes radically the moment one inhabits it gently, slowly. It becomes soft, tender. It is no longer in a hurry, it doesn't demand anything. One suddenly realises that those rushes, all those pressures of modern society were useless, were wrong. Small traps with showy flakes. There is no point in rushing to complete all the goals one sets oneself for the day, in striving to live up to other people's expectations, to perform optimally, to achieve, to have more and more... Living should not be a performance. In the rush for more, we forget how much we’re already holding in our hands. A kitten that seeks you out and gently stretches between your legs, every day together with you in the same house; a good lunch, the caress and smile of the one you love, the sunset outside, the song of the birds and the simple act of breathing... We already have what we need. All this is so precious.
The other day, for example, I had a simple but for that very reason so delightful Easter. We went to get, me, Ale, dad and mum, the ice cream that I love so much. Always the same flavours most of the time: pistachio cremino, Nutella biscuits and Kinder. They tell me I'm monotonous, but can I resist such flavours? And then we laughed a lot, there was an atmosphere of celebration and sweetness. I want every day to be like that. Not that I get ice cream every day (although it would be great ), but that they are.... Simple days.

There is little that is more attractive and, at the same time, disarming than a smile. Few things make one more beautiful than this: happiness, true happiness. Happiness frightens many people. Yet it is the natural state of being human, as Osho and many sages of the East remind us. I want to accept it wholeheartedly, embrace it and recognise it as a natural part of human nature. As much as many people don't realise it, most of the problems a person perceives they create themselves. A lot of problems do not exist, really. If people would only really try to stop and observe the beauty of what surrounds us already every day, instead of asking, always asking for more than what they have, they would realise that, really, happiness was right in front of their eyes and they did not realise it. Of course, real problems exist, they are part of life; but in proportion to those we create with our imagination, they are less than we think. I want to let go of everything that is out of my reach and that does not align with myself, and I choose to be as light as a feather, as firm as a rock, as happy as the spring wind dancing through the flowers.

The weather is finally changing, spring is just around the corner, and this fills me with unspeakable excitement! Slowly, nature is blossoming. Temperatures have risen markedly, and although it is still winter, the difference is palpable. The days have lengthened so much, and now, as I go out with my man, I can enjoy much more light until late. And, one of the most beautiful and exciting things, the birds have started singing! I cannot describe in words how restorative I find birdsong.
I can't wait until it's officially spring, and the season of light clothes, country walks and outdoor snacks, Easter egging, and afternoons on the balcony begins. I can't wait to see the greenery blooming, the flowers filling the environment with color, and the birds singing even louder. That's all I've been waiting for!
As much as winter also has its advantages, like everything, I will never cease to wait patiently each year for the arrival of the warm season. For me, there is no comparison. There is an atmosphere of freedom; the influences are fewer, the energies greater, and the sunlight invigorates the soul. So welcome, spring.

I had a great time at the Nerd Festival the other day! I had a definitely different day than usual with my man. My evaluations of the different departments:

❀ Nobuo Uematsu's concert made my man euphoric, it excited him so much, and that already makes me happy. The songs were beautiful, and it was definitely a different concert from the ones I'm used to. It was uplifting and poetic, it put me at peace. The young singer had a voice that immersed me in a magical atmosphere, just as the Japanese are able to do.
❀ The eighties gaming booth area, that was one of the most beautiful things ever! I really felt like I was in an arcade in the eighties. I felt immersed in another era. It's really moving, and I wish there were more places like that in Ferrara.
❀The computers were few, unfortunately, and that was the biggest disappointment of the event. I would have liked to have tried more of them, and that they were easier to understand. I wanted to use Windows in general. I really liked the ones I tried, though, and that was a memorable experience, too.
❀ Even the stall area offered less than I expected, but I enjoyed it. I bought a small bag called Kawaii Therapy with a keychain and a pin, which I will keep as mementos of this precious day.
❀ The game consoles were many, this was definitely the best and most stocked department!
❀ The food: I had a pizzetta that was hard and burned at the bottom. But the dessert, the hazelnut doughnut, was delicious!

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